Chronicles of the Skeptic Bypasser

Holy delayed update Batman!

2009-03-30T05:21:02Z

It's been almost too long since I've last updated this journal of mine. *Checks watch* Ok fine, it HAS been too long. In my defense I've been far too busy with everything to both with this. However, this post will attempt to describe to the jury that I have reason to avoid this site. Let the testimony begin!

At the beginning of March, I embarked on the epic journal that is OJT. However, it's not really all that great. I was supposed to be shadowing an experienced business suit in order to gain valuable skills for embarking into the business world. However, these suits seem so busy with their work that I find myself as more of a secretary on a laptop doing forms and reading documents around the offices to gain the info I need. Seems to me I'd learn about the same amount if I was spying on the company. Last week however I did manage to go on a trip with one of the workers there. David happened to have worked with me in the past so he was willing to drag me along to see business in action. It's amazing to see how people live these days when they have six children; Peaceful, happy yet troubled. Economical issues have been a stitch in these people's backs and I have seen first hand the issues it brings about. It's not pleasant to see a grown man tell him children to leave the room so he is able to discuss his demise and what happens after. It's not easy to watch the man weep for the uncertainty. These hard times just make me wish I could do more for the people of the world. I will find a way - This is certain. I have 2 more weeks with them before leaving to finish my skills and graduate on the 8th of May. This is the break I've been waiting for.

I'll have my fantastic as always summer with the FOH crew and then head off for University in the fall. Something I miss about high school that will be introduced in University is the variety of classes and courses I'll have. Of course I'll have my business classes of all topics, but then I'll have my electives! I will probably take Theater Arts, Physics and a literature course of some sort. I'm sure to enjoy University more, but I can't help but think of the past two years of college a bit wasted. Maybe things could have been better if I had thought things over more about my direction after high school. Maybe I could have been prepared. I doubt it, but it's far too late to reflect. NSO will be a good way to meet some new people for my University years. I love my current friends, but I could use some that are attending the University in the same classes as I am. I'm looking forward to joining some of the clubs around the University. Perhaps a drama club, or a book club! SIFE might be a good idea too as they have ideals similar to my own in terms of assisting those suffering from the economic backlash. I will have to apply soon, but I doubt I'll have too much of an issue getting in to be honest.

These days I've kicked myself back into the habit of writing and I must say that I'm falling in love with my imagination all over again. I'm able to take a tried and true concept for a story and bend it unto my will to make something unique. I'm retracing my steps back from chapter work to better develop my plans for my characters. I'm pretty methodical and perfectionist in these situations so this may take some time. After chats with Laura about her own 'fic she used to write, I've decided I won't be posting my work online but will be offering copies to friends if they feel the urge to read. I have big plans for this work and it may lead me to continuing a past work I gave up on. Hurrah for creative expansion!

Speaking of books, lately I found myself driving back into the Dune series that I thought I had laid to rest once and for all. It's mind numbing that I could be reading new works but instead I am reading one of my all-time faves again. Perhaps when this is done I will look into some new works. I read about this book coming out called "Godblog" that apparently deals with a man that put more effort into his internet life than his real life and begins to suffer for it. Sounds like an interesting read in my opinion.

I'm changing again! Just when I think I have a hold on who I am, I go and twist my perception of things to see new possibilities. Ah, such is life! This time it is a big change as my life bids farewell to video games and welcomes music with a blaring passion! Yes, you read correctly: Alex is moving on from video games to more mature pleasures! I've become rather serious in my attempts to improve on my guitar skills and have even downloaded Guitar Pro 5 in order to aid in my learning. Hopefully sometime in the future I'll be able to afford an electric guitar to play instead of practicing on my acoustic all the time. *sigh* Oh well. Also to be noted just as a minor change is my sudden interest in acting when previously I've let stage fright get the best of me. We'll see how I manage with that in the coming school year.

Recently, my Uncle's girlfriend gave birth to a darling little girl named Hayden Elizabeth. I've never had too much appeal to children before and sudden now I get this sick feeling of fatherly instincts when I see babies. Is this some foreshadowing towards my future? Time will tell most certainly! Congrats to both my Uncle and his girlfriend on their little unexpected treasure.

I suppose love-life should be discussed as well in this long update. Haha, in honesty there isn't much to report at all! I've almost been too happy in being single. I'm in a state where it would be a pleasant surprise if a girl were to enter my life, but otherwise I'm not exactly craving a relationship. Sure, there are those times where you'd love to be with someone who means that extra bit to you, but I don't let those moments worry me at all. I do have a girl I am currently interested but she's been everything but impossible to get in touch with lately due to the excess work that comes with University life. She's a fantastic mix of class, modern style and geeky fun. I will have to wait until a better time to find a means of asking her in some form for a hang out session just so we can be better acquainted than we are at the moment. She seems shy so I'll have to be discreet and try not to be too forward; If she gets a whiff of any sort of intention, whether it be beneficial or not, then she may flee like a deer into the woods. Have I mentioned her eyes yet? No? Well then I must say they are the most beautiful shade of Teal these eyes have ever laid themselves on. I digress though, so let's end this thought by saying that I would love to watch some classic film with her any night.

So that just about wraps it up for now. I'm sure I'll be back soon enough to tell of some little thoughts I have from time to time. I leave any and all readers with a list of the most frequent songs on my playlist. Good night until a-morrow.

Top Ten Songs

1)" Soldier Side " by System of a Down
2)" All Nightmare Long " by Metallica
3)" Pioneers " by Bloc Party
4)" Prequel to the Sequel " by Between The Buried and Me
5)" Happiness is a Warm Gun " by The Beatles
6)" Dream Brother " by Jeff Buckley
7)" Pull My Strings " by Dead Kennedys
8)" New Kid in School " by The Donnas
9)" A Little Piece of Heaven " by Avenged Sevenfold
10)" Grow Up and Blow Away " by Metric

P.S. #10 on that list is dedicated to a certain few who will not let by-gones be by-gones.

And Love Except Xenophobia

2008-05-31T05:14:48Z

Holy shit, I'm actually writing an LJ post.

So recently my life has been a consistent wait for my full-time job to kick in. I found out that my next shift is June 9th. That's actually pretty far away in my opinion considering it's about a week. I have a lot of time to kill until then.

So writing has hit a stand-still when I realized that I have no idea how to tie both character development AND story progression into the same paragraph/page without it sticking out like a sore thumb. I believe I'll probably start on my next idea that I was brainstorming. It's a tad cliche, but I hope this one fares a bit better. I'll probably jump back and forth between them for a while doing what I can...maybe at some point I'll make a commitment!

My Piano skills are improving soooo much! I can actually have my mind focused on both Treble and Bass at the same time! I have made myself a little list of songs to learn to play once I get a little better at reading sheet music. Wish me luck!

I will dedicate this brief paragraph to pay tribute to the image of Carly and Elvira making out. It makes me giggle trying to imagine how far over Carly has to bend to get past Elvira's "accessories". Haha good times.

Though I may be healed, I feel recently that I'm just not ready for any sort of love right now. They say Love comes to those who wait, and so I say "Take your time, love" because I'm in no rush. I have just learned to love myself a lot since the heartache and therefore I'm not ready to hand over any property of it to any girls just yet.

I have way too many video games on the go right now. Let's see how many I can list: F.E.A.R., Fire Emblem 9, Final Fantasy 7, Final fantasy 5, Pokemon FireRed, Pokemon Emerald, Metroid Prime 2, Tales of Symphonia and World of Warcraft. Phew...good thing I don't devote my entire day to them or I'd never leave the house.

Today I shall bring my car in to be quoted for muffler repairs. I hope that I don't have to spend too much on "China" (Thanks Carly) or I'll be tempted to just leave that hunk of metal alone. After I drop it off, I may just go down and have lunch with my dear high school friends.

"Humans are shameless creatures that carelessly ignore any misfortune which does not befall them directly. They can - and often do - turn a blind eye to all manner of wickedness so long as it does not touch them or their kin. They will bow their heads, condemning those victims for bringing calamity upon themselves, and then they will cast their eyes toward heaven in thanks while their neighbors lay dying around them."
-Soren Kurthnaga

It's 3am. I've finally finished this post and now I need sleep. I leave you with my Top Ten playlist of the last while. Good night all

1) "Hanging on the Telephone" - Blondie
2) "Thoughts of a Dying Atheist" - Muse
3) "Apres Moi" - Regina Spektor
4) "The Killing Moon" - Pavement
5) "Go with the Flow" - Queens of the Stone Age
6) "Messages" - Velvet Revolver
7) "Orange Crush" - R.E.M.
8) "Oceanside" - The Decemberists
9) "Armor & Sword" - Rush
10) "Hips Don't Lie" - Shakira (haha!)

~Alex~

Fighting the Addiction // Sedating the Infliction

2008-04-28T05:43:41Z

Since I was able to get a moment's rest, I decided to drop a note off on Myspace/LJ. I know I said all my posts would be on LJ from now on, but I decided I'll post to both of them at the same time. Multitasking: Imminent.

So who wants to know my exploits in note form? Here we go:

~ Surviving College from what I know of. I have nearly a week and a half to go and couldn't be more anxious for the year's end; This was a rough one for me. Exams have been tough and the results were not as great as I was hoping but still acceptable. I have 1 more to go and then I'll be able to sleep well at night. Bunch of projects still left to go mind you but I figure I can survive that just fine. I miss socializing.

~ Confederation Center of the Arts hired me for the summer and looking forward to starting that. I'll have to fight off my Uncle's pranks but I think I could handle him as a boss ;). Expected to have about 32 hours per week on paychecks. Shifts are mostly evening shifts which will leave me some daytime to do as I please and maybe even some late night hangouts. Katrina is still begging me to go to Peake's with her posse so I'll have to be sure to stay true to my promise there.

~ Piano skills have increased quite a bit. I'm actually somewhat good at it and I figure I learned pretty quickly. I'm personally finding it too fun to play "Space Dye Vest" by Dream Theater (As played by the incredible Jordan Rudess). Playing the Harry Potter theme is quite amusing as well!

~ Writing is not going great right now but mostly due to lack of time to accomplish anything. Summer will give me some time for that as well. Summer will bring tons of great times for me.

~ Alex now listens to rap as well? WHAAA? Yeah Yeah I know what you're thinking...but yes I have found some rap that I enjoy even if it is mostly older works like Ice Cube, Run DMC and Tupac Shakur. Still kinda hard to get "Gold Digger" by Kanye West out of my head though heh heh.

~ Re-read the Hannibal series just for kicks and enjoyed it as much as I do every time I read it through. Thomas Harris can have a piece of my heart as long as he does not feed off it. I might go ahead and follow RJ's advice and pick up some books from the "Wizard's rules" series; They seem interesting enough. Paige wants me to read "Twilight" in time for the movie so I might do that as well.

~ IRON MAN STARTS THIS WEEKEND OMG OMG *Nerd-gasm*

~ Achieved 100% Full combo Expert on "Stricken" by Disturbed this weekend on Guitar hero 3. Hell yes! (That solo is a bugger)

~ My car is falling apart into even smaller parts than it was in before. First few paychecks may clear that up though. Maybe save for a new car...who knows?

Overall good time in my life as soon as I cut out these college exams. Can't wait for the days when I can sleep in and wake up to sunshine. I promised I'd take a few girls out for a good night on the town (Playa much? Not really) so I won't be short on company this summer that's for sure. I've never been so secure with myself in such a long time. I was cut-open for a while but I think I've realized the truth and now I'm just happen to scab over (as gross of a metaphor as that sounds). By the end of this summer I'll be healed up and ready for another great year.

Anyhow that's all from me for now, I'm gonna go listen to some Ice cube and then hit the hay. Sleep is sweet.

Top Ten played in last week:

1) "In My Arms" by Jeff Buckley
2) "A Favour House Atlantic" by Coheed & Cambria
3) "Simple Man" by Lynyrd Skynyrd
4) "You Can Do It" by Ice Cube
5) "Sick Sick Sick" by Queens of the Stone Age
6) "Space Dye Vest" by Dream Theater
7) "Maybe I'm a Leo" by Deep Purple
8) "Sink Florida Sink" by Against Me!
9) "Yellow Ledbetter" by Pearl Jam
10) "Little Girls" by Oingo Boingo

>> To me, coming from you, "Friend" is a four letter word <<

~Alex~

I am who I am

2008-04-09T04:36:34Z

Sitting here at the keyboard while my disc defragment runs in the background, I have come to realize something:

In the past little while I've had some pretty big issues in my life dealing with Schooling, Health, Love, Confidence, Social relations and Family. A lot of heartache, sadness and stress has come my way but....

I feel stronger now. All of this has hardened my self-image and strengthened my mind. I feel so very high right now even when at one of my lows. So here is my list of thanks that go out to the issues in my life:

Thank you Education issues. You have opened my eyes and taught me to see reality again. You've taught me to concentrate. You've taught me to stay focused and ever vigilant in my studies. You've taught me to pay attention to my mental value. You taught me humility when I fail, and yet rise me above by giving me a better reason to try harder.

Thank you Artistic Road-block. You've made me reshape my mind in order to see new possibilities. You've opened my mind and heart to new expression. You've brought a new love into my life in the form of Piano. You've given me the reason to search for topics to write about when everything was the same. You helped me be me again.

Thank you Heartbreak. You taught me to stay true to myself even when put down by everyone around. You taught me to rise above and better myself only in the ways I see fit. You gave me reason to flaunt what I have. You showed me that I am sexy and brilliant even when I hear no one say it. You taught me to be better than her in this cold war and to respect how much I had done for no reason other than because I wanted to. You taught me to laugh at peril and deceit. You made me rethink my image of love and being single. You gave me independence when I looked for attachment. You gave me pain, and I turned it to Muscle. Wasted time? Never.

Thank you Family. You brought me closer to home when I felt like running. You gave me shelter when I needed the support. You gave me laughter and happiness that I overlooked so many times before. You gave me a reason to be a Son and Brother again. You gave me love.

Thank you Health. Though you may be failing me, I will not simply lay in bed and die. You gave me reason to cherish what I have at this time. You taught me to use foresight more often. You taught me to want more of myself. You gave me the chance to be what I wanted.

Thank you Friends and Enemies. You finally gave me reason to find out who was and who wasn't with me. You gave me a reason to stride forward and leave others behind. You gave me sincerity and compassion again after a stage of bitter anguish. You gave me bliss when stress came to my door. You gave me reality.

Thank you Alex. Thank you for never giving up on me. Sorry for making you wait.

February 14th

2008-02-15T03:56:00Z

To all those who celebrate love and relationships on this day, I wish you a happy Valentine's day.

To all like me who don't celebrate such a media crazed holidays, I wish you a happy Anniversary of when I moved to the Island. That's right...Valentine's day was the exact day I arrived on the island from Ontario 3 years ago. So I want cake. Now.

Lost was awesome tonight. Two more survivors revealed. The survivor list now stands at this:

1) Jack - He becomes depressed and suicidal claiming he needs to return to the island.

2) Kate - Seems to have her life set. Jack is stalking her

3) Hurley - Readmitted to the Mental hospital after seeing many of the deceased Lost members.

4) Sayid - Now a headhunter working alongside...

5) Ben - Sayid's partner...they are hunting down certain targets for an unrevealed reason.

Ben was a complete surprise. Never expected it...I totally thought he'd be dead by the end of this.

I've explored some new bands this day and I thought I'd share the names of some of them. They are of mixed genres varying from Pop to Death metal. Here we go:

~ Sufjan Stevens
~ Tegan and Sara (Acoustica for the win)
~ Fall out boy (Better than you think)
~ Buzzcocks (Awesome classic punk)
~ Efterklang
~ Of Montreal (Remind me of Metric)
~ Nightwish
~ Epica (Epic is in their name. Nuff said)
~ The B-52s (Yeeeeaaaaahhhh!!!)
~ Mayday Parade
~ Baroness
~ Isis (Any metal band named for an Egyptian god HAS to rule)
~ This Will Destroy You
~ Justice

Got the new Bloc party album too. Awesome. Still gotta get the new City and Colour album though.

Fun times. Night night P.S. Amanda is my soul-mate.

~Alex~

Don'tcha Love That Smell?

2008-02-13T05:47:20Z

First update for a while and to be honest I can't even think of things to write about. We'll see how I do, shall we?

Today I found out that I'm slacking a bit in my FAII class and need to pick up my trousers (Metaphorically, of course) and get somewhere in this course. Lisa gave me this sweet list of all my optional skills in the direct order they should be finished in order to learn EVERYTHING that is necessary. That woman is a saint. I had a test about the GST/HST session today I forgot about and still came out on top. No doubt in my mind I aced it.

Tomorrow I shall be seeing Protest the Hero with my good friends. It shall rock. Nuff said. Also, I do not have a date for Valentine's day nor do I care. It's just another day to me :)

Take care to all, I'll be here sitting to Lynyrd Skynyrd all night :D

~Alex~

The hand you're dealt.

2008-01-31T05:43:26Z

Karma

I believe in a thing called love, just listen to the- No NOOO I meant Karma. I believe in Karma. Karma is a force of nature and belief based solely around your intentions and actions in life. I believe that there are two grand principles in Karma that effect your life. The first is that the more good you do for others, the more good you will receive in return. The second is that in the duration of a year you will have equal amounts of good and bad times and that they must balance out. Therefore, if you have 6 months of bad times, you are entitled to 6 months of good time. Now I don't reach far into the Hindu or Buddhist versions of Karma, just more of the commercial portion of it.

Lately, I have been having a horrible month. Within this month I've lost friends, Lost my job, Lost money, Become stressed with my past and present mental states, Become sickly, Lost faith in myself and learned the fate of one of my greatest goal of this year. Overall, it's been shitty as hell and I am looking very very affectionately for an out. I've realized now that I'm hated, but I don't despair...I would rather have them hate me at range then have them as a close trusted friend who devises to be my Brutus. I am still a tad bitter over the whole deal with Bethany, but I can safely say that if she suddenly spoke to me tomorrow I'd know exactly what to say that would be neither giving in nor accusing. I don't hate her though she most certainly hates me, but I can't trust her right now for more than obvious reasons.

Needless to say, I'm just waiting for this next month starting tomorrow to be in great recovery from right now. I need a pick me up to me from sinking into a depression. I could work my way out of it slowly, but I just don't have the time these days.

Today I saw many beautiful things. First involved my good friend Katrina. She was feeling down cause her car was towed this morning because it apparently obstructed people in the parking lot. She was scared being that there was a power-outage and she had no way of finding where the car was held. All of a sudden, a girl named Brooke comes by. Brooke and Katrina used to be close friends but had a few too many big fights to remain friends, but all of a sudden at the sight of Katrina in tears Brooke became the best thing Katrina could have asked for. Brooke was actually able to make her smile and laugh when the rest of us were clueless as to how to approach her. It's amazing what past memories and feelings for people could do in terms of Loyalty. I'd love to think that my worse of enemies could actually do something similar for me, but that's just hoping on fools' beliefs.

The Second beautiful occurrence came to me when I was watching my dog out back. She was sniffing around the big tree out back when for some strange reason a leaf gets frozen to her nose! So there she is, my ever clever dog shaking her head like nuts and jumping up and down trying to shake this thing off. It was my first big smile of the day and it made me feel like there was still some innocence in the world.

The third came when I was making dinner with my dear sister. We made some fish and potato wedges from scratch and they couldn't have tasted better if we had bought it from a restaurant. She was skilled at cooking and I was a vigorous learner quickly catching on. We worked like a dynamic duo in the kitchen. I really can't wait to do it again soon.

I believe I may have a crush on an old crush yet again (Rekindling, whatever you may call it) but the only trouble would be actually getting in touch with her. She is very busy and reluctant to check her emails/messages so planning time with her is nearly impossible. I really want to get to know her even closer than I do now, but she is so damn busy and seemingly uninterested in me. I, however, do not give up so easily. She is definitely worth crushing over so I shall persist. I just wish it was easier to get my foot in the door.

So as I leave this night to sleep, I wish you all to treat eachother with respect and care. This world has enough hate as it is. Make love not war...making love is way more pleasurable than killing anyhow >:D Take Care everyone

~Alex~

P.S. "Lover, You Should've Come Over" and "Forget Her" have become the songs of my life, both by the brilliant and late Jeff Buckley. Download them now.

Coffee OF DOOM!

2008-01-27T04:39:24Z

Not much happened these past few days which has brought me to realize that I can't make blog posts if I don't have anything interesting to write about.

Katrina left our program on Thursday and is now in the Business Admin program. She has all the same classes as me except for FAII so I won't miss her as much, but still...sad to see her go. I can't wait for her Valentine's bash (That is of course if I'm single at that point, it's only for us free-flyers). Good luck to her <3

Today Spencer and I sat around drinking coffee, talking about politics and school. For 5 minutes. Then we talked about Bethany for about 2 hours. Yeah that's all I'm gonna say about that. Nice seeing him again, he's good company.

I just wrote 7 random poems from my head, 4 depressing, 2 surreal and one happy poem. Variety, bitches....spice of life.

When I update later maybe I'll post one of them. Tah tah for now.

~Alex~

L = Alex -> Awesome DNE

2008-01-23T05:47:53Z

For those who don't get calculus, That was my nerdy-licious way of me tell you all that I am highly superior and that you should all learn to make me sandwiches.

First topic of the night is explaining how I work because apparently I come off too strong to people in either bad ways or worse ways. Today I had two occasions, not just one but two separate cases. I am a friendly guy. I try to be nice to everyone regardless of how they see me or what I've heard about them in the past. I view them as what I see in front of me. However, I do not appreciate it when people take me to have intentions that are not true. Today I was told I was coming on strong and a certain friend was concerned that I harnessed feelings that would not be returned. It was understandable and we talked it out peacefully and maturely, which was probably the most grand thing ever; I truly wish all my other girl problems were solved that way. However, the other came when I was informed that one of my female friends thought I wanted to sleep with her. I have never once implied it seriously (possibly once jokingly, but even then it is a stretch) and now she has a huge grudge against me. Well guess what? Fuck you and grow the hell up! Not every guy that jokes around with you about sex wants to fuck your brains out! Just cause you go to clubs a lot and sleep with random guys doesn't mean you're sexy. Fucking zombie jesus!

So this girl now added to my list of people to avoid, it seems that I may as well have a facebook group dedicated to hating me! Quite a few of them and most of them have some very solid dirt on me. I'd be trouble for sure. Interestingly though, one of them actually spoke to me today on a semi-friendly basis. It was a simple "hey" and "what's up" situation...but it was still nice for a change.

Second, I'd like to report that my dog does not have Rabies and will not need to be put down. Happy day for myself and for my dog. My dad is talking about getting another puppy as well! GLEE!

Today we lost an amazing actor. Heath Ledger was 28 years old when he was found dead in a New York apartment rumored to be owned by Mary-Kate Olsen with pills on the floor around him. OD is obvious, but whether or not suicide is still under investigation. The man played many great roles from his break-out role in "The Patriot" with Mel Gibson to his recent finished film "The Dark Knight" where he plays the famous role of "The Joker". Known for his charisma and compassion on and off the set, he was a dedicated father to his two children. What an amazing man, why so damn young?

I talked to Sandy today about OJT. It seems that if I choose I can do my OJT in Ontario if I am able to get in contact with the business' accounting manager. If that were the case, I would want to stay with my Uncle Wade and save on rent while I do my training. Plus I would get to see all my friends up there. I'd get to do what I was always to do....say goodbye to those I lost while away. I can't pass this up if I can get it to work.

I don't think I'll be spending any money anymore. I don't have any to spend. What a horrible state I'm in right now financially. However, my spirits are higher (despite being turned down by an amazing woman today, ha ha) and I hope to see some light through these darkened winter skies. Toodle-loo....I'm off to bed. :)

~Alex~

If she dies, I will exact my revenge on those fucking foxes.

2008-01-21T04:37:19Z

My dog was bit this morning by one of those fucking stray foxes that run around yards randomly. It ripped her leg wide open and nearly paralyzed that leg. Now I learn that she may have contracted rabies from this attack. We need to see the results but if we are not able to save her (I'm sure we will though) I will go on a fox genocide. I love my dog and no one, I repeat, NO ONE OR NOTHING WILL HURT HER AND GET AWAY WITH IT. Fucking stray animals, if I didn't have compassion you'd all be meat in the grocery store by now.

Otherwise I'm feeling better good about things. I was very emotional yesterday about everything and ended up offending some people, so to them I apologize. I'm calmed now except for this little sad period with my dear puppy. My poor baby.

I have to start being more money conscientious.

Night to all
~Alex~

Rebirth

2008-01-20T03:33:01Z

22 weeks is what is recorded to be the last time I've visited my LJ. I had decided to move my writings to my then inactive and unimaginative Myspace page because of a certain girl I was involved with. Silly me, I figured that I could impress her by playing her blogging game..ha ha I'm silly. Now that we are no longer together, I find it pointless to have a blog over there when I used to write all the time here. I was only reminded of this when I noticed on a friend's page that she also had a LJ. I thought to myself "Huh. I miss this website....it's very outdated". Thanks to Danni for reminding me that there is always a way to go back.

So let's see, what can I chat about this first post back. I think I'll bitch about some things bothering me these days; typical blogger eh? :)

1) College is dragging me down with it's repetitive ignorance from instructors, anti-social or "jock" stereotypical students and unfair marking systems.

2) Friends are disappearing whether it be we lose contact, they begin to hate me (only 4 cases so far, but that's one too many in my opinion) or we just don't have the right schedule in have a get together.

3) Unemployment sucks during the dead season of January-March. My old work screwed me over basically and there is nothing I can do. No call backs yet...starting to lose hope.

4) I miss Ontario more than ever these days. I was hoping to go back this March break to see the Iron maiden concert (fuck yeah!) and visit old friends, but I'm not even sure if that can happen anymore. Fuck.

5) Girls. They suck. When they aren't busy hating me, they are too busy ignoring me. Kinda hard to stay the same old romantic chivalric when you don't have someone to practice on.

6) Kinda relating to #6, Lack of sexual activity. 4 months it's been now...I'm a trooper, but my soldier needs to cross enemy lines sometime soon. Stupid Libido.

7) I haven't gotten to sit down and write on my novel in quite some time. Most of my good plot ideas and dialog have slipped my mind.

8) Car accident has left my mind cluttered and what I assume is a concussion is causing me distress and pain. Better than that, I decided to sacrifice my health for a good time yesterday when I chose to drink when another DD entered the game. My brain is fucked hardcore right now. But I did accomplish something last night that I'm very proud of. Go drunken, talkative and opinionated Alex.

9) She's still on my fucking mind. WHAT THE HELL! It's probably due to how everyone seems to love mentioning her or something just so happens to throw-back to those times. I don't love her anymore, and how she has been treating me makes me want to hate her for what she's done to me. Just stop fucking talking about her already.

10) I don't see an end to any of this. I hate not knowing the future as lame as that sounds. We have to cope with being helpless against the tides of time. Should I just relax and enjoy the ride?

In better news, I went and bought the Megaman X collection for Gamecube and Dynasty Warriors 4 for PS2. Megaman was my favorite series of video games as I was growing up so this was an amazing blast from the past. I've already beaten X1 and am now starting on X2. Zero is still a fucking badass. Dynasty warriors is a great game for venting rage being that all you do is whip your weapon around to kill thousands of nameless soldiers. I've been playing Soul caliber again and trying to expand my skill beyond Maxi, Voldo and Kilik. It's tough getting the hang of other characters.

This was a good first post since I stopped. Glad to be back. My head hurts. Yeah. Comments?

~Alex~

Purpose?

2007-08-16T04:29:42Z

These images and words we see and speak hold little value in the world of business. The only time the word “art” is used in business, is if a gallery was the topic and money was its price. In today’s world, Art is described by only a few categories. Music. Photography. Painting. It almost seems as though all other forms of art have been abolished from the definition. Then again, I am not one to be so close to the word art. I do not play a musical instrument. I do not take pictures every second. I do not paste a palette with colours. I am what would call a voyeur. I view and marvel in its beauty, yet never partake. My mind so full of creativity and yet all is wasted locked in a cranial prison cell. Isn’t this world great? Excuse me while I attempt to spill my mind tonight upon this electronic palette. Take pictures as this won’t be long; there will be no encore tonight.

“Going to war, give’em hell,
D-day, next stop Normandy.
Beginning of the end
We know how to and sure as shit we’ll win.
War is peace, sure man,
A retreat for the damned
A playground for the demented
A haven for those who walk this world
Bereft of heart and soul.
Love and war they say all is fair.
Take his life,
But wont take his hair
Your body has parts your country can spare
By the way son here’s your wheelchair

He once had to be all he could be
Now he’s nothing for no one, nowhere to see
Funny thing, he’s like you and me
Its a funny thing. A funny thing.
Tears streak his solemn stare
Abandoned for wreckage, nobody cares
No one knew what would happen there,
No one spoke no one even dared.
Don’t ask what you can do for your country
Ask what your country can do for you!”

Am I the only one that finds it ironic that we, the civilization we are, are at peace when at threat? When we are “under attack” we know what we face. The Cold war proved that we are more trigger-happy and twitchy when we don’t know when they will strike. But who are we against here? The enemy: Terrorism (broad isn’t it?) The goal: To eliminate it (Good luck) Method: UNKNOWN. Current Process to save lives in North America: Take lives in Eastern lands. Our hero: Uncle Sam’s brave warriors…gladly become markers of where in Iraq we haven’t attacked yet. “Don’t worry Johnny, America won’t drop bombs where we are….God’s on our side!” Don’t worry though…too many people rant about this effort in Iraq so I don’t have to. Much like how the Civilians of Iraq don’t have to worry about fighting off terrorism inside their own country, they have the “World Police” to do that for them. Isn’t the world great these days?

Heroes are made through actions unprovoked through normal thought. The basic instinct is to fend for one’s own self. However, those of heroic properties lay it al on the line for people who might not even know they existed. A while ago, I saw video footage of a flood in a southern country. The houses were flooded and in turn the buildings crumble. One girl was pinned beneath cement foundation and the flood was soon to consume the foundation along with her life. All firefighters backed off from the scene…they felt it was hopeless. However a neighbour of the girl remained and crawled beneath the wreckage to help the girl free herself from the stone. The ground shifted and just at the last minute, they both escaped from the building as the house was sucked into the river of chaos. The man risked his own to save another. I always figured I was that sort of person, Strong enough to aid others should they need it. I hope whenever I am tested of this (hopefully not of something too hard or risky) that I am able to overcome worry to do some good. I would give my life for any of my friends. I will uphold that promise no matter what.

Change is a glorious thing. Change is a frightening thing. Too much change right now. Change brings uncertainty and anxiety. Change brings fear and sorrow. Alex hates fear and sorrow. Therefore, by transitive properties, Alex hates and yet fears Change.

Mikael Akerfeldt is the voice of angel/demon hybrids. John Petrucci has Sex-hands. Neil Gaiman writes Alex’s pleasure-on-pages (Sometimes called Novels). How come the sexiest people in the world are Male? Alex cannot win.

Speaking of books, I have the urge to reread the following series:
~ Hannibal Lector series by Thomas Harris
~ Sandman/American Gods series by Neil Gaiman
~ Wheel of Time by Robert Jordan
~ Bourne series by Robert Ludlum

I wish I knew where to pick up a copy of American Gods. I heart that book.

Mortality is the depressing part of life. Every new beginning comes from some other beginning’s end. Too many people live their lives without caution of when it could be snipped short. Some do not even live worthwhile lives. Today a friend of mine cheated death by playing himself out of character and driving a tad slower than usual. He walked away only slightly disturbed at the accident, but the metal crushed around him. The cement truck shook it off. He shook all over. He counted his blessings and tried to regain composure. Harsh breath and a shudder. The car was not in good shape. I figured that he still has a purpose in life. Someone is playing chess with our lives up there and chooses our appropriate end. Today was not my friend’s day…he has a greater purpose to achieve. I am thankful for his safety.

Yesterday I conformed. I am now unnatural. My hair will never be the same again.

I hope that my next post will be better than this one. I couldn’t focus tonight enough to really make a different in how I write. I apologize to anyone reading this and feeling let down from the long wait I put them through to read a post from a marvel such as myself. I will try again sometime soon. For now, I will just wait and be supportive to those who need it.

Forever yours,
~Alex~

Solitary Shell

2007-08-16T03:52:31Z

The day began at the crack of noon with the sound of rustling and creaking floorboards lying just above my room. The renovations had begun and I was still lazing in my hovel-of-a-room, barely awake and still unwilling to move from my bed. Five minutes passed and I was up. After showering and missing the family lunch, I feasted on a pizza-pocket to sedate my hunger. Since everyone else seemed to be in the cleaning mood I felt I might as well take a few minutes (Read: HOURS) to make my den look a tad more suitable. I went through my desk of papers and random items that cluttered it, allowing memory after memory to run their course through my head. Smiling at some, shaking my head at others I tossed out trinkets into the waste bin. I came across a graduation photo of a good friend, He was doing his signature pose for pictures and I couldn't help but grin at the silly look. He would be leaving at the end of summer and I knew that I'd miss him. Then it hit me, he would not be the only friend that I would be losing this summer. My grade 11 friends would not be around often, friends would move away and find new lives and I would be stuck here for educational purposes. This summer has become a big beacon of change to me. I never realized until now that there is a lot more change going on than I was aware of. How could I be so blind? That I would figure that graduating and moving forward in my life would not be a huge change. I would be welcoming new trials and adjusting to the pains of the post-secondary life. More maturity, More responsibility and little to no time for fooling around.

I decided at this moment that it would be best to clear my mind of all distractions and stressing thoughts. So as any dog-lover would do, I decided to gear up and take a walk with my dear Spot. A spunky little border collie is a great companion as her vigor never seems to wear out. We started walking making our way through the familiar subdivision that we had walked through time and time again but as we passed a certain house I stopped and stared. On the driveway of this house, a Man was playing hockey with what seemed to be his son. I cracked a smile at the touching sight as the boy tried eagerly to steal the ball from his father. The father noticed me and waved with a friendly "Afternoon!" and I responded with a simple "Hello". I had spoken with this man before and knew that he was in fact an Accountant as I planned on becoming. This man was busy with being both a devoted father and a good employee to his clients. I hoped that when the time came when I would become a family man, that I would be able to balance my personal/family life and my professional life as well as my neighbour. As we continued on past the two, I felt a sudden urge to break routine. At the fork in the road ahead, I decided against my usual path and headed down the other street. Spot, confused at this change, sniffed the ground with hope to understand and identify this route I had chosen for her. When the hand leads, those affected must respond with adjustment. After a few more turns into a completely new area of my subdivision, my companion and I found ourselves waterside next to the Hillsborough river. The long road had only left-side roads leading elsewhere, but my path remained straight ahead. I passed a certain street , Brandy drive, that I would come to notice later. We made our way down to the beach, where the evening before we had spent among hundreds others to watch the Canada day fireworks over the harbor. I brought Spot onto the sands and detached her leash, allowing her to happily trot off to explore this new location. As she sniffed the stranded seaweed, I reflected on the night before. I had chosen to spend the night with my family and even yet when we sat there in our fold-up lawn chairs, they talked amongst themselves as I listened to the soothing sounds of Dire straits on my iPod. The fireworks were nice when accompanied by acoustic rock. My mind had left the night as I returned to reality to see Spot dodging the waves crashing on the shore. They would fall in, and she would jump back. She barked a few times at the waves and I would chuckle. I envied her. She, when so small and timid, would be so curious to explore and understand that what was around her. The seaweed's smell, the sand's texture and the waves aggression were n matter to the inquisitive nature of Spot the border collie. When had I lost my curiosity? where I would try and follow routine in order to avoid change. Change was unpredictable and to me it would be too risky to have change when the outcome could be unfavorable. When had I become so scared? A wise man once told me the difference between scientists and normal people. Normal people when shocked by an unknown electrical source would respond with the thought "I best not do that again or get shocked" while the scientist would think "I wonder if that would shock me every time I touched it". I considered how much of a normal person I had become as the years had passed. It gave me faith in my common usage of the phrase "Who wants to be normal?". I watched as Spot walked over what seemed to be smashed beer bottles from the party-goers the night before. I wanted to yelled to her to be careful, but would she even understand me at all. She would be oblivious to the danger, and yet so very happy just for her freedom. Freedom from my chain. To think that some people would throw caution to the wind for the chance to free themselves from their burden. When had it become so wonderful to be careless? Spot had finished her exploration and had found her way back to be as I stood watching the waters lost in my thoughts. I petted her and she snapped at the leash as if to say "Back to the cell, warden...I've had my visit". We walked off the beach, but with one final look across the water I felt the breeze shift. To an awkwardly dress boy, clad in shorts and long jacket, I felt uneasy. At this time, She would be taking her underlings down to the swimming area. They would most likely beckon her to join in with the swimming, but would she jump in after them? A teacher must practice what he or she preaches in order to connect with her students, so I imagined that she would fall to peer pressure and join them in the lake. I hoped on the chance that while she cared about her children, she would take the time to think about the one who cared for her, A boy on the beach wishing he was at camp.

We walked on through the roads by the shore, observing the aftermath of the parties before. Beer bottles here, cigarette butts there...The place had lost the charm it once held as a remote beach-side street. I found another fork ahead of me but I did not know the path to walk. I finally did not know where I was in the subdivision anymore and began to thinking of my path. However, my sidekick had decided her path. Tail wagging, she dragged me to the dirt road branching further from the subdivision and farther from home. Perhaps she felt the need to get away too. She, as a dog, could only walk where allowed to. I, as a man, could only go where I could drive to. I knew where I wanted to drive to, but the person I would see would not be there to greet me as I arrived. The dirt path lead into a space surrounded with trees, their shadows painting a church-glass image onto the ground. Looking up I saw the sun peering through to blind me. Silhouettes of the trees attempted to save whatever privacy befell me below. As we continued, I noticed the grass and trees along this path to be much more healthier than anywhere else nearby. The green grass rivaled the brown sand formed around the buildings nearby. Our path lead us out of the forest and into a construction zone. Skeletal house-frames stood with concrete infecting the nature below. I stopped walking for a second to make note of the burned grass below the buildings. We, the parasites of the world, were leaving out mark once again. We come, tear down what lies before us, and invade with our destructive habitats. This road I left was the ghost of what solitude once remained before the trees were torn down by the fires of growth. We returned to the subdivision via the newly connected paved road we found and continued back into civilization. A familiar name appeared ahead. Brand drive. I smirked knowing of how much I would have missed had I taken that route before. No beach, no dirt path, no realization of our invasion. The road less traveled enlightens those that seek knowledge. Up the road a little, I would see a smaller street sign reading "Cherry lane". I had never noticed this road before and as I glanced down it, it appeared bare with no houses along it. I sighed at how when we had so much room for houses in these empty lots outlining Cherry lane we would still find a reason to tear up new land somewhere else. What a waste. Ferguson street laid ahead, an usual checkpoint on our usual route of walking. This path met up with the initial route, minus the hour walk into the forest. We found out street dead ahead and turned the corner to the home stretch. I unleashed Spot once again to allow her to find her way back. After some short detours of sniffing poles and bathroom breaks, she found her way to the house door.

" He struggled to get through his day
He was helplessly behind
He poured himself onto the page
Writing for hours at a time

As a man he was a danger to himself
Fearful and sad most of the time
He was drifting in and out of sanity
But in every other way he was fine "

Dream Theater spoke my situation quite well for the time being. For sometime now I've felt I've made little progress in any direction. With every success I make, I end up losing something else. With the 3 hours i would spend typing this out, both checking my mistakes and thinking clearly what I was to write about, I could have been with friends or practicing up on Guitar like I promises myself I would do this summer. I certainly poured myself onto the page. Fearful and sad can be used to describe most people when change is introduced. Fearing what could come of this change, and sad that nothing last forever without changing. I do not question my sanity, only my beliefs in why I would bother typing this all out when most likely no one would read it. Why do such a thing if no one cares? I wear my mask well....No one would notice my struggle within unless I shared.

I would like to thank anyone who took the time to read this, as it was a chore to type out even when my will allowed it to be easily done. I hope to write of my thoughts again even without audience. I'll chip away the shell and send word to the outside world somehow. Just let me sleep here just a little longer, where the warmth of my solitude can keep me gentled.

Edit on July 4th: Happy One Month Beth <3

~Alex~

Happy Birthday Alex!

2007-01-11T05:36:56Z

Just as a Treat, I've stolen this idea from Mookie of Dominic Deegan: Oracle for Hire. It's the Movie soundtrack game! Basically you put your iPod (Which I recieved from my Parents for my B-day) on shuffle and fill in the blanks. Commentary in Italics and under the track name. Time for my Movie!

Opening Credits:
"In My Darkest Hour" by Megadeth
Holy shit, an angry song about revenge and death right at the beginning of the film. Christ my movie rules so far.

Waking Up:
"No One Knows" by Queens of the Stoneage
Apparently I have some devious thoughts even after my dreams...

First Day at School:
"Scar Tissue" by Red Hot Chili Peppers
I never knew what the song was about anyhow...guess I'm scarred by my first day.

Falling in Love:
"Little Dreamer" by Van Halen
Oh my....seems my fantasy love will have an electric climax...if you know what I mean.

Breaking Up:
"Diamonds and Rust" by Judas Priest
Lies...Lies ! LIES! SHE FED ME LIES!

Prom:
"Sultans of Swing" by Dire Straits
Incredible, my prom shall be smooth and sexy.

Life's Okay:
"Among the Living" by Anthrax
Life is as Life is....I live each day out as it comes!

Mental Breakdown:
"Seek & Destroy" by Metallica
MURDEROUS RAMPAGE ! MURDEROUS RAMPAGE !

Driving:
"Eyes of the Insane" by Slayer
Oooo....Paranoia while driving....how lovely !

Flashback:
"Texas Flood" by Stevie Ray Vaughan
Disasterous past leading to my insanity...Yes yes this fits well.

Getting Back Together:
"China Girl" by David Bowie
I dated a chinese girl...neat !

Wedding:
"I am Ahab" by Mastodon
We interrupt this wedding to go whale hunting ! Yarr !

Birth of Child:
"Crossroads" by Cream
Would be a change...considering I was totally insane right before this.

Final Battle:
"The Battle of Evermore" by Led Zeppelin
Elves, Dwarves and other creatures come to my aid and destroy my enemy !

Death Scene:
"Tyrant" by Judas Priest
I guess I ruled over people pretty well....hope they remember me.

Funeral Song:
"Joseph Merrick" by Mastodon
But my name isn't Joseph....however it is a mellow sad song.

End Credits:
"People of the Sun" by Rage Against the Machine
The world's next threat....ALIENS !

So that's my awesome movie of my fall into Insanity and the constant threat of Creature both Mythologically and Extraterrestrial. Fun Stuff...Talk to you guys later.

Melissa's Quiz...thingy....

2006-12-28T05:40:24Z

[PREPPY]
[ ]You spend half an hour doing your hair.
[ ] You go tanning/lay out.
[ ] You watch The OC and/or Laguna Beach.
[ ] You own something designer.
[ ] You love going shopping.
[ ] You like Paris Hilton.
[x] You take your cellphone everywhere.
[x] You own an iPod and/or an MP3 player.
[ ] You love Starbucks.
[ ] You love flip flops.
Total = 2

[GOTH]
[ ] Red or black is your favorite color.
[x] You have thought about death.
[ ] You wear chains.
[x] You like heavy metal.
[ ] You love Hot Topic.
[ ] You have worn black lipstick.
[ ] Your hair is dark.
[ ] You dislike preps.
[x] You're an atheist/agnostic
[ ] You have/want piercings in unusual places.
Total = 3

[PUNK/SKATERBOARDER]
[x] You skateboard/blade.
[ ] You love plaid.
[ ] You have/own at least 1 pair of Converse.
[x] You think you're different.
[x] You hate MTV.
[ ] You have/had/want blue, purple, or green hair
[x] You love skater boys/girls.
[x] You hate pink.
[ ] You hate rich kids.
[x] You listen to punk music
Total = 4

[NERD/LOSER]
[x] You like computers.
[ ] You like Star Trek.
[ ] You wear glasses.
[x] You get straight A's.
[X] You love reading.
[x] You have a curfew.
[ ] You always do your homework.
[x] You never cut school.
Total = 5

[EMO]
[ ] You're depressed.
[ ] You have black-rimmed glasses.
[ ] You like Thursday.
[ ] You comb your hair in front of your face.
[ ] You cry easily.
[ ] You hate being called emo.
[x] You keep a journal/diary.
[x] You have written a sad poem.
[ ] You have/had a sad MySpace layout.
Total = 2

[GHETTO/GANGSTA]
[ ] You like rap.
[ ] You wear Tag.
[ ] You say "nigga" frequently.
[x] You drink often.
[ ] You wear rubberbands in your pants.
[X] You swear a lot.
[ ] You have had a freestyling contest.
[x] You have said "shizzle".
[x]You have been called a "playa".
[ ] You wear Converse with the tongue flipped out.
Total = 4

SCENE/HARDCORE
[ ] You wear a bandana.
[ ] You love Pokemon, the Ninja Turtles, etc.
[x] You never walk anywhere.
[ ] You wear slip-on Vans.
[ ] You like Norma Jean.
[x] You wear band tees.
[ ] You love to "hardcore" dance or mosh.
[ ] Your hair has been dyed in more than one color.
[x] You don't really like being called a satanist.
Total = 3

Whichever section you gave the most x's to, is the one that you are.

Turns out...I'm really a Nerd. Go me!

I've seen 156 of these movies! GO ALEX!

2006-12-24T02:17:27Z

SUPPOSEDLY if you've seen over 80 of these movies, you have no life.

Mark the ones you've seen. There are 190 movies on this list. Put your
score in header and repost!

(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Boondock Saints
(x) The Mexican
(x) Fight Club
( ) Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story
(x) Blazing Saddles
( ) Airplane

Total: 8/10

(X) The Princess Bride
(x) AnchorMan: The Legend of Ron Burgandy
( ) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
(X) Saw II
(x) White Noise
( ) White Oleander
(X) Anger Management
(x) 50 First Dates

Total: 8/10

(X) Scream
(X) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(X) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
(X) American Pie
(x)American Pie 2
(x) American Wedding
(x) American Pie Band Camp

Total: 10/10

(x) Harry Potter
(x) Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
(x) Resident Evil I
(X) Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
( ) Little Black Book
(X) The Village
( ) Lilo & Stitch.
( ) Lilo & Stitch 2: Stitch has a Glitch

Total: 8/11

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(X) Signs
(x) The Grinch
( ) Texas Chainsaw Massacre (1978)
(X) Texas Chainsaw Massacre (2004)
(x) White Chick
(X) Butterfly Effect
( ) Thirteen Going on 30
(x) I, Robot

Total: 8/10

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
(X) Universal Soldier
(x) A Series Of Unfortunate Events
(x) Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
( ) KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
(x) Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt

Total: 10/11

(x) A Cinderella Story
( ) The Terminal
(x) The Lizzie McGuire Movie
(x) Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
(x) Dumb & Dumberer
(X) Final Destination
(x) Final Destination2
(x) Final destination3
(x) Halloween
(x) The Ring (Ringu)
(x) The Ring 2 (Ringu2)

Total: 11/12

(x) Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
( ) Practical Magic
(x) Chicago
(X) Ghost Ship
( ) From Hell
(x) Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
(x) I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards

Total: 7/9

(X) The Day After Tomorrow
(X) Child's Play
(x) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
(x) Just Married
(X) Gothika
(X) Nightmare on Elm Street
( ) Sixteen Candles
(x) Remember the Titans
(x) Coach Carter

Total: 10/11

(x) Bad Boys 2
(x) Joy Ride
(x) Se7en
(x) Ocean's Eleven
( ) Ocean's Twelve
( ) Identity
( ) Lone Star
(X) Bedazzled
(x) Predator I
(x) Predator II

Total: 7/10

(X) Independence Day
(x) Cujo
( ) A Bronx Tale
(X) Darkness Falls
(X) Christine
(x) ET
(x) Children of the Corn
( ) My Boss' daughter
( ) Maid in Manhattan
( ) Frailty

Total: 6/10

( ) Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
( ) Calendar Girls
(x) Sideways
(X) Mars Attacks
( ) Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Forrest Gump
(x) Big Trouble in Little China

Total: 7/10

(x) X-Men
(x) X2
(x) Spider-Man
(x) Spider-Man 2
( ) Sky High
(x) Jeepers Creepers
(x) Jeepers Creepers 2
(x) Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Others
(x) Freaky Friday
(x) Reign of Fire
(x) Cruel Intentions
(x) Cruel Intentions 2
(x) The Hot Chick

Total: 13/14

( ) Swimfan
( ) Miracle
(x) Old School
( ) The Notebook
(x) K-Pax
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
(X) A Walk to Remember
( ) Boogeyman

Total: 6/10

(x) Hitch
(x) The Fifth Element
(x) Star Wars Episode I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Episode II Attack of The Clones
(x) Star Wars Episode III Revenge of The Sith
(x) Star Wars Episode IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Episode V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Episode VI Return of The Jedi
( ) Troop Beverly Hills
( ) Swimming with Sharks

Total: 8/10

( ) Air Force One
( ) For Richer or Poorer
( ) Trainspotting
( ) People Under the Stairs
(x) Blue Velvet
(x) Sound of Music
(x) Parent Trap
( ) Parent Trap Re-make
(x) The Birds
(x) The Terminator
(x) Terminator-2
(x) T-3

Total: 7/12

( ) Empire Records
( ) SLC Punk
(x) Meet Joe Black
(x) Nightmare Before Christmas
(x) The Silence of the Lambs
(x) Sleepy Hollow
(x) I Heart Huckabees
( ) 24 Hour Party People
( ) Blood In Blood Out

Total: 5/9

(X) Thirteen
( ) Manic
(x) American History X
(x) Deep Blue Sea
(x) George of the Jungle
( ) Canadian Bacon
( ) Big Black Titties
(x) How High
( ) The Jacket
( ) My Litte Pony 1986

Total: 5/10

A card

2006-12-03T18:29:21Z

COMBAT CARDS 2.1

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kholdstare_zero @ 2006-12-01T23:43:00

2006-12-02T04:43:44Z

You are The Sun

Happiness, Content, Joy.

The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.

Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.

The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

Top Tens and Work news

2006-11-06T04:47:28Z

A compiled list of my personal Top tens. I decided against doing "fave song" due to indecisiveness. Pay attention...you might just learn something about me.

TOP 10 FAVOURITE MOVIES:

1) Eternal Sunshine of The Spotless Mind (2004) (Jim Carrey, Kate Winslet, Elijah Wood)
2) A Clockwerk Orange (1971) (Malcolm McDowell, Patrick Magee)
3) Apocalypse Now (1979) (Marlon Brando, Harrison Ford, Robert Duvall, Martin Sheen, Lawerence Fishbourne)
4) Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas (1998) (Johnny Depp, Tobey Maguire, Christina Ricci)
5) The Godfather (1972) (Marlon Brando, Al Pacino, Robert Duvall)
6) Resevoir Dogs (1992) (Harvey Kietel, Tim Roth)
7) Memento (2000) (Guy Pierce, Carrie-Ann Moss)
8) Reqiuem for a Dream (2000) (Jared Leto, Jennifer Connelly, Marlon Wayans)
9) The Princess Bride (1987) (Cary Elwes, Robin Wright Penn, Andre the Giant)
10) The Departed (2006)(Leonardo DiCaprio, Matt Damon, Jack Nicolson, Mark Wahlberg)

TOP 10 BANDS

1) Rush
2) Iron Maiden
3) Mastodon
4) Megadeth
5) Slayer
6) Judas Priest
7) Led Zeppelin
8) Nile
9) Anthrax
10) Testament

TOP 10 ALBUMS

1) Leviathan (Mastodon)
2) Moving Pictures (Rush)
3) Rust In Peace (Megadeth)
4) Annihilation of the Wicked (Nile)
5) Brave New World (Iron Maiden)
6) Reign in Blood (Slayer)
7) Physical Graffiti (Led Zeppelin)
8) Frizzle Fry (Primus)
9) Blood Mountain (Mastodon)
10) The Wall (Pink Floyd)

That aside, I'd like to inform all who read that I am employed (and have been for a bit) By D.P. Murphy inc. in his Tim Horton's chain. So far I've done my training and had 3 shifts. Two of those shifts were cleaning shifts, but I'm fine with that....I'm getting paid well enough for it.

OMG OMG OMG LOL 2 DAYS UNTIL GUITAR HERO 2 !!!!!!
I have received word that Drist's "Arterial Black" and Buckethead's "Jordan" will be featured as bonus tracks....I - Can't - Wait!

~Alex~

Thus Liberty is Cut in Twain

2006-10-29T02:09:54Z

" This is quite possibly the most important news report of our generation. On October 17, 2006, President George W. Bush signed the Military ... all » Commissions Act of 2006, which does away with Habeas Corpus and makes it perfectly legal for the government to secretly arrest any American citizen, strip him of his citizenship, hold him indefinitely without charges, try him in front of a military tribunal, and execute him in secret. This is sad, sad day for our country. Shame on all of us for letting this happen. With the signing of this act, the President has granted himself the powers of a dictator, courtesy of the U.S. Congress, and the zoned-out couch potato population of America. "

This is horrible, I cant believe that such an act would be put forward. I never hated Bush but this is insane....He's rising on my list of peeves. Watch it and be in awe....this...is...MURDER.

~Alex~

Guitar Hero II Tracklist!!!!!

2006-10-11T02:44:04Z

Holy shit I'm pumped for this....I have to get this game (if not just for the awesome guitar-controller). I mean just look at this tracklist....all of those songs are either by good bands or are, in their respective ways, epic among rock lovers. The ones with Asterisks next to them are songs I personally love and can't wait to play. ENJOY!

1. Opening Licks:
Motley Crue - Shout at the Devil
Danzig - Mother
Cheap Trick - Surrender
Wolfmother - Woman
Spinal Tap - Tonight I'm Gonna Rock You Tonight

2. Amp-Warmers:
Kiss - Strutter
Nirvana - Heart-Shaped Box
Police - Message in a Bottle
Van Halen - You Really Got Me
Kansas - Carry on Wayward Son

3. String-Snappers:
Foo Fighters - Monkey Wrench
Alice in Chains - Them Bones (*)
Iggy Pop and the Stooges - Search and Destroy
Pretenders - Tattooed Love Boys
Black Sabbath - War Pigs (*)

4. Thrash and Burn:
Warrant - Cherry Pie (*)
Butthole Surfers - Who Was in My Room Last Night
Mathew Sweet - Girlfriend (*)
Rolling Stones - Can't You Hear Me Knockin'
Guns N' Roses - Sweet Child O' Mine (*)

5. Return of the Shred:
Rage Against the Machine - Killing in the Name Of (*)
Primus - John the Fisherman
Sword - Freya
Thin Lizzy - Bad Reputation
Aerosmith - Last Child

6. Relentless Riffs:
Heart - Crazy on You (*)
Stone Temple Pilots - Tripping on a Hole in a Paper Heart
Stray Cats - Rock This Town
Allman Brothers - Jessica (*)
Jane's Addiction - Stop

7. Furious Fretwork:
Anthrax - Madhouse (*)
Living End - Carry Me Home
Lamb of God - Laid to Rest
Reverend Horton Heat - Psychobilly Freakout
Rush - YYZ (*)

8. Face-Melters:
Avenged Sevenfold - Beast and the Harlot (*)
Suicidal Tendencies - Institutionalized
Dick Dale - Misirlou
Megadeth - Hangar 18 (*)
Lynyrd Skynyrd - Free Bird (*)

Amazing no? Surprising enteries by Heart, Pretenders, Allman brothers, Sword and Avenged sevenfold. But the biggest gasp-inducing release was that of Megadeth's epic 14 guitar solo "Hangar 18". I strongly urge everyone to go download (or buy) some of these songs.

~Alex~

Gay Rights

2006-10-04T01:40:20Z

Gay Rights
"Why is it that, as a culture, we are more comfortable seeing two men holding guns than holding hands?" - Ernest Gaines

We would like to know who really believes in gay rights on LiveJournal. There is no bribe of a miracle or anything like that. If you truly believe in gay rights, then repost this and title the post as "Gay Rights". If you don't believe in gay rights, then just ignore this. Thanks.

kholdstare_zero @ 2006-09-24T14:32:00

2006-09-24T17:33:05Z

Advanced Global Personality Test Results

Extraversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Stability	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Orderliness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	53%
Accommodation	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Interdependence	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
Intellectual	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Mystical	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Artistic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Religious	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Hedonism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Materialism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Narcissism	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	76%
Adventurousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Work ethic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Self absorbed	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Conflict seeking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Need to dominate	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%

Romantic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Avoidant	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Anti-authority	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Wealth	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Dependency	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	43%
Change averse	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Cautiousness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Individuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Sexuality	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
Peter pan complex	\|\|\|\|\|\|	30%
Physical security	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	83%
Physical Fitness	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	84%
Histrionic	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Paranoia	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Vanity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Hypersensitivity	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
Female cliche	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%

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	Alex MacDonald is GOD
	How could we have missed it all this time?

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Circles.....Spinning me in CIIIIIRCCCLLLLLLESSSS!!! cough

2006-09-20T06:06:05Z

Stolen from Jordan's Page

SEVEN CIRCLES

CIRCLE ONE: THE OUTSIDE

1. What's your name: Alex
2. How tall are you: 5'7"
3. What color are your eyes: Brown
4. What color is your hair: Dirty blond/light brown
5. Are you Male or Female: Male
6. What is your best feature (physically): *avoids joke* er...Neck?
7. What's your shoe size: 10 1/2
8. Glasses, yes or no: No
9. Did you ever have braces: Right now actually
10. On a typical day you are wearing: Jeans and either a casual shirt or a semi-formal shirt
11. When you go to bed you're wearing: Underwear
12. You work out/exercise about how often: None, but soon to change

CIRCLE TWO: MUSIC

1. Name five of your favorite bands: Rush, Slayer, Testament, Nile, Megadeth
2. Name five of your favorite singers: Cedric Bixler-Zavala, Paul Souza, Mikael Åkerfeldt, Geddy Lee, Robert Plant
3. Name three songs you are currently playing nonstop: "Cult" - Slayer, "Riding the Snake" - Testament, "Excretion Text" - Nile
4. Name one song (give lyrics) that best describes your life right now: "Empty spaces" - PF
(What shall we use
To fill the empty spaces
Where we used to talk?
How shall I fill
The final places?
How should I complete the wall)
5. Name one song (give lyrics) that best describes your life one year ago: "Take up thy Stethoscope and walk" - PF
(Music seems to help the pain
Seems to cultivate the brain.
Doctor kindly tell your wife that
I'm alive - flowers thrive - realize - realize
Realize. )
6. When you're driving, what are the preset stations on your radio: K-rock 105.5
7. What's the last CD you bought: "Christ Illusion" - Slayer
8. Was the last CD you burned an actual CD or a mix: Mix composing the best of Testament
9. Name one song/band/singer you're embarrassed to like but do: "Italian Leather Sofa" - Cake
10. If you could only attend one concert ever again, it would be: Rush's 30th anniversary!!
11. Name one band/singer you absoulutely can't stand: Slipknot (don't get me started)
12. Name a group you use to like but feel you've grown out of: The Mars Volta

CIRCLE THREE: MOVIES/TELEVISION

1. Name your favorite actor: Robert De Niro
2. Name your favorite actress: Jodie Foster
3. Name your favorite television show right now: Harvey Birdman: Attorney at law
4. Name five really cool movies you've recently seen: The Protector, Accepted, Beerfest, Ong-Bak, Step up (I'll admit I liked it)
5. Your favorite canceled television show: Mission Hill
7. Name one movie you wish you hadn't wasted time/money on recently: The Covenant (Fucking stupid)
8. You would never watch a movie with: Someone who's seen it already who will give away the ending
9. Favorite candy/food to watch movies with: Popcorn/Glosettes
10. Three favorite tv channels: TBS,Teletoon (Mission hill, Robot chicken and Harvey Birdman) and Fox
11. Favorite reality show: HA HA HA....no.
12. Favorite character on a reality show: The Hulk? (Imagine him on a show...now THAT would be worth watching

CIRCLE FOUR: WORD ASSOCIATION
(Write the first word/thing/person that comes into your head when you read this word:)

1. coffee: Addictive
2. dog: Adorable
3. slut: Myspace
4. candy: Fruit
5. pole: Stripper (ha ha)
6. ocean: WATER
7. brave: Axe (weapon in Fire Emblem )
8. loving: River of Love (VGcats)
9. cookie: Yum? (That a word or a sound?)
10. death: Penalty
11. life: Expiration
12. child: Innocent

CIRCLE FIVE: WHICH WOULD YOU PREFER:
(bold the one you prefer)

1. Ten guilty men go free OR One innocent man goes to jail for life
2. Eaten by a lion OR Eaten by thousands of small insects
3. A life of contentment without love OR A life with love and heartache
4. No television OR No music
7. No more pizza, ever OR No more chocolate, ever
8. A trip to Europe OR a trip to Hawaii.
9. An hour with your future soul mate OR An hour with a lost loved one
10. No longer being able to cry OR No longer being able to feel the need to cry
11. Sex without love OR love without sex
12. Loving someone who doesn't love you OR being loved by someone you don't love

CIRCLE SIX: THE LOVE LIFE

1. Are you currently in a relationship: Nope
2. Are you currently looking/interested in someone: Yeah
3. Are you a virgin: Yes
4. If yes, how long do you plan to be one: Lose it before I'm 20....I hope :P
5. How many times have you been "in love": Twice
6. Looking back, how do you feel about that person(s) now: Loved both of them (though a bit shallow-like the first one)
7. Name three things (physically) you look for in someone: Smile, Body texture, Hair
8. Name three things (mentally/emotionally) you look for in someone: Intelligence, Sincerity, Loyalty
9. Biggest turn offs include: Excessively loud, Ditzy to the point of "no brain" (I can handle some...but...)
10. Your ideal date would be: Long enough for both of us to go satisfied
11. You want to get married, where, when, how: Church, Mid twenties, Big reception :)
12. Does anyone have feelings for you right now that you don't return: Yes

CIRCLE SEVEN: THE FRIENDS
(of your friends, who would you say is:)

1. The one you immediately go to with a problem: Melissa
2. The most rational: Nathan
3. The funniest: Jordan
4. The one you spend the most time on the phone with: Don't use phone often...but I'd say Nathan or Melissa
6. The most honest: Melissa
7. The purest: Danielle
8. The smartest: Stephen
9. The most athletic: Jason
10. The most compassionate: Jay Cee
11. The one most likely to get thrown in jail and why: Tough....I don't know
12. The last one that said "i love you": Jordan xD

That was fun...time for Sleep. Expect an update later this week.

~Alex~

Piano videos

2006-09-10T16:24:30Z

Here are a few videos found on YouTube of piano players...some of these are brilliantly done (Especially the Warcraft II theme and Final Fantasy 7 medley) I hope you all enjoy these as much as I do...even if you don't know where the songs are from:

Amazing stuff if you ask me. That's all for now...I'm off to study.

~Alex~